Sometimes The Right Decisions Aren't the Easiest Ones - Pt. 2
So I finally decided to do what I should’ve done a long time ago. I decided it was time to move on.
To move on from the job that left me drained and angry and to a job I love and am passionate about. To a job that helps me grow. But what kind of job is that exactly? I had no idea.
I have only one year left of college and truthfully I’m ready for something more than a barista or sales associate. Because let’s be honest, as an almost 26-year-old college student I feel over qualified for regular college jobs. But also under qualified for the job I want.
But why? Why was I selling myself short? Was I afraid I might fail? Or afraid to look stupid? Was I afraid of not being enough?
ALL THE ABOVE. I had let fear control me to the point I didn’t know what to do, where to go or what I wanted. My fears has completely crippled me.
But you know what? It got to the point where I am more afraid of being stuck and lost, than I am about looking silly.
I asked myself, “What if I never go after what I want? What will my life look like? Will I be happy?” My answer was a huge, “NO!!”
So here I am, despite the fear of failing, fear of what people think of me, fear of looking stupid and feeling like I’m not enough. And I’m going for it. Especially when it’s hard.
Stop waiting for the “right time” or for a sign. All that is is fear keeping you from doing what you want to do and what you know you should be doing. 💫